Starry-Eyed Surprise?

you say that I need therapy, well darling, so do you

Anna — Thu, 19 Jan 2012 21:03:46 +0000

It’s a new year and a new semester
Feels like this blog hold’s too much sadness
Temporarily blogging on my tumblr

my first university semester, gone just like that

Anna — Fri, 16 Dec 2011 22:52:13 +0000

Still 1 exam left, but I’m feeling the butterflies already. This weekend can’t pass quick enough, I want to be home! I don’t think I’ve ever looked forward to something so much in my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (apart from the time when I was waiting for my new car.. But that is irrelevant to this case in point)

I literally have never been so excited to pack a suitcase before :)

♥

I sank into the sea, wrapped in piano strings

Anna — Thu, 15 Dec 2011 11:14:56 +0000

I watched you crawl into my bed
With curses spilling from your head
You said, “We’re just the walking dead”
So I pulled the trigger and we floated off into the air

genuinely, these exams are killing me

Anna — Thu, 15 Dec 2011 07:45:44 +0000

muscle cars drove a truck right through my heart

Anna — Thu, 15 Dec 2011 02:34:38 +0000

I’d love to blog about my life, but to be honest nothing much has been going on. I’ve just mainly been studying, sleeping, eating, studying – in that order, then repeat cycle. For some reason, just the thought of being home in exactly 4 days is driving me insane. I’ve already got my suitcase out, filled to the brim, and I swear it looks like I’m packing to go home forever instead of just 3 short weeks. I’d almost say I can feel myself adapting to this place, or maybe it’s because I’m just growing comfortable with always being alone. Whatever it is, I wish I wasn’t finding it so easy to change. Fighting it was making me sad, but accepting it is changing me into somebody entirely different from the girl who left Singapore 3 months ago. There was once a time when my greatest fear was fitting in, just being another face in a crowd of people, yet now I find that my greatest fear is standing out. I went from a school where I knew every single name of every single person, to a school where I know almost nobody, but it’s okay. I went from a school where I knew everything I said would have an impact on somebody or something, to a school where I never say anything, because people would think I was wrong, and people would think I was silly, but most of all because people just would not care. But that’s okay. In the beginning this jump, no – I really mean this leap, was so vast and so treacherous that I landed on the otherside not knowing who I was anymore. Is this growing up? I don’t know, I don’t know, but I sure hope they like the person who’s standing on the otherside much more than the person who left the tropics a lifetime ago.

♥

Anna — Mon, 12 Dec 2011 18:39:34 +0000

If there ever comes a day
When we can’t be together
Just keep me in your heart
Because I will stay there forever

Winnie the Pooh

Get. Me. Out. Of. Here :(

Anna — Mon, 12 Dec 2011 17:09:55 +0000

Needless to say, exams have been making me go ridiculously stir-crazy.. Staying in to study this weekend while everyone went out partying made it feel like, possibly, the longest weekend I’ve ever had in the past few months at university. Thankfully, it’s nothing that a little (well, a lot!) of shopping can’t cure.. When I went to pick these up at reception, even the lady working at the counter commented on my excessive spending, albeit in her lovely mothering Scottish way.. Still to come, some snazzy nike high top dunks, a christmas present for my maid and multiple graze boxes! Definitely not good for my budget – especially seeing as how I’m using my next year’s March money to get me through December.. Dayyummm. Budget student living? I think not.

This time next week, I’ll be home home hoooommmmeee!! Back to good food at any hour of the day, back to the best friends in the world, back to my familiaa, back to my snuggly pookiepie doggys, back to my silly smellster boyfriend, back to wearing nothing but shorts and slippers, back to the sunshine (tropical thunderstorms), back to 30 degree boiling hot weather!! Goodbye snow, goodbye -1 degree freezing nights, goodbye tight budget, goodbye walking everywhere, goodbye Scotland!!! This week can’t pass by quick enough :)

♥

sayonara blackberry bold 9900..

Anna — Mon, 12 Dec 2011 17:09:50 +0000

Casually killed my brand new blackberry bold 9900 last week. To be fair, it’s definitely a very sturdy phone.. I was sitting on a window ledge when it dropped out of my pocket, out of a 5th floor window, yet only the screen cracked.. And it was still alive after that?! I mean fo reeeals alive, people could still call me and I could talk to them.. Through a completely shattered phone.. Weird. People can die from jumping out of 5th floor windows!! (well.. maybe not) Anyway, this is me being a total fucktard.. Retardation doesn’t quite cut it :(

♥

with your ear to a seashell

Anna — Sun, 04 Dec 2011 18:11:58 +0000

I’m not in Scotland to see it right now (I’m in London staying with my sister attempting to “study”, but it’s clearly going quite disastrously haha) but I woke up to the news that Edinburgh saw it’s first snow this morning!! Half of me wishes I’d been there, but the other half knows I probably wouldn’t have been awake in time to see it haha.. Before noon on a Sunday?! I think not! Anyway the second picture was posted in my house’s facebook group.. Look at the difference! Amazing how a place can change in 2 weeks.

♡☺ 14 days till I’m home..☺♡

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“somebody that I used to know”, gotye ft. kimbre

Anna — Sat, 03 Dec 2011 17:36:09 +0000

“Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it’s an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I’ll admit that I was glad that it was over”

♥